Closing Thoughts:
Annie
Well... here it is. Time to go home. I think this is the first time I’ve ever truly been ready to go home from a mission trip. Then again I’ve never been on a trip longer than 2 weeks, and those have been in my home country of Honduras. I’ve decided that 6 weeks is the perfect time for a mission trip. You accomplish a lot, and the time flies, but then again, it seems like you’ve been gone forever. I’m so ready to see my family. All three of us decided this trip has definitely made us love and appreciate our families more. I personally have grown a lot closer to my mom and dad these past few years since I no longer am living at home. Absence truly does make the heart grow fonder. I’ve been praying a lot about that actually. I want Katie and Jenn to be able to come back and appreciate their friends and family more just like I hope I will.
I’ve definitely learned to cook a lot better. Being on my own and making do with what few ingredients we have had has really helped me step up my game in the kitchen. Even Katie and Jenn have improved and learned a little :)
As I decided to sit down and write this, we were packing up all our last belongings. We’ve each walked away with a few new trinkets for friends and family and a few for ourselves too. Katie’s walking away without her iPod, and Jenn without her retainer (haaaaaaaa), but we all three can agree that we’re gaining so much from this trip to South America. The people here are different. I can’t really explain it, but they just are. Living in the “Bible Belt” of North America has really left me now, and I hope I can bring what I’ve seen and learned here in South America back home. There are so many people who don’t have any clue who Jesus is, and I can’t wait to continue that journey to spread the good news. Jenn couldn’t have wrote it any better, but being able to tell people from the beginning who Jesus is, what He has done, and what He is STILL doing has really been an amazing experience. My faith has always been such a huge part of who I am, and all three of us can’t wait to bring that new fire we have back to LU and Nashville.
As far as my personal closing thoughts, I can’t decide where to begin. My spiritual life is truly a beautiful mess. All three of us are currently reading different parts of the Bible, and I’m in Deuteronomy. I really have learned a lot from this book, so I’m taking my sweet time with it. One thing that I really just have to continue to beat through my thick skull is that if God has given me these rules, why can’t I just obey? What makes it so difficult to follow His rules? Why do I stumble as a Christian? As a young woman? Why do I try to add my own words or variations to his perfect words? Deuteronomy 12:32 ends that chapter by saying, “See that you do all I command you; do not add to it or take away from it”. Why can’t I just live my life HATING sin and LOVING God and LOVING what is GOOD!? Deut. 7:26 says, “Utterly abhor and detest it (sin), for it is set apart for destruction”. It’s time for me to grow up. It’s time for me to decide. I need to stop living the lukewarm life. It’s time for me to pick which way I’m going to live. Next to this verse in the Bible I wrote “HATE SIN. This will make it so much easier for us to live as christians if we abhor what is evil”. If we as christians just start living our lives hating sin and loving God (and I mean TRULY LOVING GOD), sinning will become so much harder. I still have a lot of questions about the Bible and about God, but I’ve also learned a great lesson about all those questions I have for Him. He is God, not me. He is the center of the universe, and I am only a small speck. Why do I think the world revolves around me? Around Lipscomb? Around Nashville? It doesn’t... so I’ve decided it’s time for me to accept that there will always be things I don’t understand about God, his decisions, etc, but as a Christian, I have to learn to trust Him. I say I trust God and His plan, but I MEAN TRULY TRUSTING GOD. Trusting that He will take care of me. Trusting that He will give me food, clothes, and the things that I truly need. Deuteronomy speaks a lot about Moses going up on the mountain to talk to God, and how he needed nothing for 40 days but to be filled with God. I cannot imagine the beauty of living on nothing for 40 days, but to imagine living for that long being filled with the Lord is even more spectacular. I pray that I learn a lot this year at school, and that we three can be lights at our school and jobs for our friends and families. I know God is working through me, and I love it. I have to ask God to have patience with me and my friends, just like Moses did for his brother and his people.
I’m trying. I’m excited. I’m fired up. I’m living for Him.
“Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength” Deuteronomy 6:5
Thank you all who prayed for us while we were here. Your prayers have been so needed, and we feel so blessed to have you all as brothers and sisters. Can’t wait to be home and tell you all our stories! God is good.